Added many title art for the pages

Now the main page connect to most pages on the website (there are still some "secret" unlisted one)

Added some category to the Bedroom page

Revamped the Wind Archive (Previosly Sky Archive) to include everything in one page

that is it, man, i am so tired of my life rn qmq (hopefully it will get better)

when i'm tired i get more horny, and i cannot concentrate to my passions .m.

this time i fixed the back-end

as well as adding plenty of links for my recent blog-post

and a RSS page that sorta explain how RSS work

this time update or new blogpost should not be so dragged out

and i will be able to actually concentrate more on the actual

important stuff for this page: the content!

I also added some content in the rambling section

even if that stuff is only accessible with the RSS feed

i will probably make a dedicated page in the future

I sure made it hard for people to follow this website

Last update of the year!

I would like to update this page at least every week,

but i guess this might be impossible as i need to do stuff irl

so to solve this i finally fixed the RSS feed!

Now you can choose what to follow about this website You can find the RSS feed link in the blog page

if you want to follow just this general updates you may check the 'updates' box and copy the link

if you are interested only on my 'reviews' you may do that with the 'reviews' box etc...

Or don't check anything like before and get everything

I need to say most of the categories are quite barren

but you never know, maybe one day when i start to do some programming i might add stuff in devlog or art...

If you don't know how to set up or use an RSS feeder i suggest to watch this video

now i think this is a good video, Do not watch this man political videos though OmO.

- I re-rewritten the reviews still not the best but they are at least readable now

- I almost Finished the B&B section

- Made a new blogpost

- In general fixed some desing issue i had

yay~ so I Made some heavy UI changes and improvement in the site

- if you click the drawing in My bedroom you finally get a more complete description of them

- i finally fixed the signbook for good, i am considering a stand-alone page

- Now you can set your species for the page it will not do much for now, but who know what i might add

- I disabled a lot of CSS animation, they are cool, but testing it i noticed that they might be too demanding for some pc

- I am rewriting a lot of reviews of The Paw's Reviews, I noticed how bad they were, going through a tangent and another, to be fair, they were always the first draft, the concept is that they would have a more quick form of content for the page (like this quick update are). But they quickly spiraled down to a mess, i will still keep the length of those one as it was, but from now on i will try to make them more compact and quick to the point (I do not know if i will have the time to make each a pixelart to them though)

- Also i want to make some more personal blog-posts, since aside from the first one (that I didn't even wrote myself that jordimario guy did) all the other one are like... Stories, which are cool and still personal, but is more like stuff that happened to me, stuff that I don't understand, Sometime I feel like i want just to shout into the void, without thinking TOO much of proses.

I also finished the work for the "Wiki-like" page for B&B with Grazer, i didn't know this RP game some month ago, but that was exactly what i wanted

for my own campaign :3, in that page i summarized all the stuff that might be useful for a player

I am not sure how copyright rules works, so i will take that page down if it happen to violate them

and use only for myself and my friends, i already addressed some possible Copyright issues in the page but

TL;DR You still need the original manual to run a campaign as a GM

Anyway I might create a Github page for that, so people might add their homebrew stuff directly in there as i done for myself

as i didn't find any place to talk about B&B. or most of them are dead.

Is really a miracle that the project was founded in the first place as it seems B&B have no audiece online anymore

Even in Watership down Forum that are relatively active i don't see this being discussed

graphical changes, and for last, a Roleplay Summary for all the D&D/Pathfinder and other session

Also Grazer and I are working to a little summary for B&B

i still need to create or find some graphic and shorten some of the texts
(or downright fix some broken english =OwO=)

for now i think is alright

Introduction

Klonoa was always one of those game which I never hear talked about but most old people had played and really enjoying it and with the Announcement of their remake i was like, "oh yeah, I want to know what this series is all about!"

The Character / Mascot design,

I'm always in the mood of A fun mascot platform, and what a mascot! He looks so odd, but so cute, and I'm not gonna lie, at first I thought it was some sonic character.

Also he wear cap with pacman, so it's a certified gamer B)

He is such a cute cabbit, damn, i want to sleep under his cap while on his adventure and cuddle him at night. also i imagine him as incredibly fluffy :3

Gameplay

The Gameplay of this game is really something interesting What struck me is how despise being a platform. Your moveset is so limited, the game does not feature power-up and such

And still your knowledge of your limited moves will expand the more you advance the game oh yeah, i can grab an enemy (making them inflate for some reason) and use them to jump mid-air 'that's dumb' I say, without knowing this move can be done midair without restriction and this is where the fun begin.

I wish there would be more section when you get to do that, but that isn't as important, since the rest of the levels are astonishing crafted to fit your character, and are so satisfying to traverse that may also be thanked to the cool graphic and scenario and envelop this world

Collectable

Strolling through Phantomville, the game also feature some collectable, mostly as an incentive to exploration in an 2.5d environment where branches can change the entire prospective of the map

And back to learning your moveset as you advance in the game: one of my favorite collectable piece, it is the one in 2-1, where to get it, you need to throw an enemy below you but you can only throw enemies sideways, uh, until you notice that when you jump off you actually throw it down, and maybe is my little rat brain, but, i didn't noticed that i stayed there for at least 10 minute, and then, it clicked, and it felt great, then knowing that this interaction was necessary for future part is just such a good way

Tutorial

yeah its great that the game does not hold your hand with these all the dialogue are for Story purpose, and yep the story is pretty sweet

Story

Now without spoiler, the story is not dark, or anything but it sure have some unexpected dark moments When I make a story for children I always say to myself that

It doesn't matter how dark a story for children can get the important thing is that the story end with a good ending (which i think is a Don Bluth quote)

Which i don't know if this can be a really good ending I mean, it kind is, but it left me with some kind of void

Like, why can't i just take refuge, or hell, even live in my escapist desire is not bad, i don't have to depart, nobody is forcing me to leave, like if Klonoa had a chance I'm sure he would not have done that, right?

Fringe thought About enemies

So, where do these enemies that Klonoa can grab en come from and why they came out of these portals just to gets hopelessly get inflated? At one point i even fell bad to use them, but then i remember that, i personally would not mind being inflated by him, so maybe they are just waiting in line really.

Graphic and Visual

Damn, you would think a bunch of straight path floating in the air would look inappropriate. This game is stunning

You jump through waterfalls and lost ravines, between destroyed column, or swirly paths that cross themself midair without any of it feeling out of place.

This 2.5d approach contrast to every other old platform i had played even some 2.5d one, as most of them always felt like my character not moving in three direction as a downgrade, but here, the art and the number of path but also some claver gimmick that some level have made me actively look at the background for secret as for admiring the work it was put in

Here, well, this path just make sense, of course you can only move backward or forward, you are jumping to a broken column to another

Quick notion about the bell

One detail that i loved about one level which isn't exactly a visual one but still it doesn't impact the gameplay is that one bell on the first boss stage, it has no use, you don't even need to interact with, but still if you throw an enemy at it, the bell will interact and swing for a dong, this bell only appear on this boss stage, and they still decided to animate this one peculiar interaction, and not just, make the enemy pass-through that or just disappear, this are the little details, that make me think that the game was lovely made.

makeing this a videogame a classic.

Overall

This is Good game, 8/10.

ehmmm, some side notes

in my first playthrough i didn't really get the story but then again its probably my little rat brain to blame

it is remarkable that in the sea of platform game with furry mascots this game mange to retain is own identity even to these day i would argue. Not an easy task.

Don Bluth introduction

I don't know anything about this guy aside the anti-Disney spirit, and all.

Yet i feel like i need to watch these movie as most of the early one are regarded as some of the best western animated movie.

Still i will try my best to watch even the less good one,

Overview

%%but for now, we get to start with NIMH, which, aside for some %%problem in the third act, i really enjoyed, and animation wise this is the definition of soul.

The story is compelling and animation wise this is the definition of soul. the film feel like a grand high fantasy at moment even if all of this is setted in the backyard of a human and most of the magical stuff are like this because the story is told by the prospective of a simple mice.

We see Brisby defile it's fear, plunge it's instinct to meet the giant scary owl that might as well be a dragon.

This fantastical world is fantastical since we see it mostly by Brisby sight while getting some snippet of humans in and there to reassure the human audience that they are not evil or good, they are ignorant to this whole fantasy world in their plain sight well of course not all human are so innocent of course.

The whole feeling of this film feel cozy, while still being dark and mysterious , mostly archived also by the strange Lightning that this film utilize

So great film, but spoiler alert! I really hated the conclusion and you probably know why if you have seen the movie, like if it wasn't that good i would not even cared. BUT this is a great awesome movie and i DO care that the last part in particular the resolution is mediocre at best umu

The Rat representation

the rats representation, is also cool being involved the only real fantasy-ish stuff infected by something that even human can't understand (i think). The vibe of these new rats gave me a lot to think.

Is scary how some of my kind has lived stuff like this, at least in the film you gained intellect in the real life, you gain a cancer or something while some humans are clueless of the hurt some are very aware

if you are or were a lab rat, this film might hit you,

The Rats of NIMH

So these new evolved rats, didn't identifies themselves as rats anymore, they feel like something else, something, human? The film kinda push this idea, but not fully i think, I would argue that they are as far as rat-kind as human-kind

Because intelligence alone doesn't make you human. I am not saying I understand humanity but i do understand rats, and living without depending on other is just instinct for somebody.

I feel like the more intelligent you are the more you understand how far reaching the human hands are enveloping our fragile necks changing our lives forcefully without regard of us, like the same rats of NIMH were changed. I am not very intelligent, and i can act as cocky as i want, but i admit, each time I saw a human when i lived in the sewer my instinct just told me to run, before they kill me, or worse become their tool.

what the Rats of NIMH became were nor human nor rat, still they need to adapt in this world, where they were much more aware of the higher plane, unlike us, common animals, that we just live happily frolicking through the grasses knowing that what i am saying right now is just some jest at the concept of gods that can be easily killed by any of us.

The secret of NIMH

I wanted to talk about The reveal of the secret itself And even most of the final act...

Most of my disappointment is derived by how damn good is everything before that point

Is ok of the rats having magic-like powers due to Electricity but you can't justify a stone even an Electrical one to make a rock float, that was just an out of place deus ex machina, which didn't have to happen why instead of levitating the house, the stone gave Frisby the power to pierce through the mud and rescuing his child yeah Electricity dosen't work like that, but like, Electric is power, no?

while for the secret itself, the secret of "The secret of NIMH" is revealed by a explanation dump seeing this secret being revealed so quickly, without little the lead up to it

the shame is also seeing such interesting scene where the rats get ignejcted being explain maybe too troughly, like come on, you don't need to tell me they were suffering, i can see it!

The utter shattering of this aura of mystery around the Rat society it hurts me more than the deus ex machina, and unfortunatly due to this, I always feel to refrain in suggesting this movie to other of my kind.

Conclusion

You know even if this movie has it's flaw, I can't help but adore this film even more on second viewing, now that i already know what the secret is all about

each scene is memorable, the character of Brisby is so cool even the black Crow is not bad, as a comic relief for these kind of movie, is a nice ray of light in this story.

overall great movie, Nicodemus and the Redstone are dumb plot point, but is fine like the message or the character of this film doesn't get hindered by them i just think they are lazy story solution for an overall great movie 8.5/10

%%A quick view in the wikipedia page let me know that this movie production %%was an extremely dire, and %%was one hell of a journey %%and really is only a miracle i get to watch it today

This review was written before having reed the book which btw, the best piece of art i had experienced

What is this film about

This movie tell a story about the most awesome and fiercesome creature in existence seemingly harmless but brave warriors, this film is called "The Secret of NIMH" and they talk about Rats The best animal to ever have existed of course uwu

But then of course there is "Watership Down" a film about Rabbits, The second best animals to ever exist in my opinion

Onto Watership Down!

This is such a fantastic movie, and is maddening that people think about this film only for its gory scene I come watching this movie expecting to be traumatized but instead i came out with so much more.

Tackling theme as death and life, the very reason to continue running as a pray. Is it because we want to score some points for an hypothetical afterlife? I don't know... how about, the pure unstoppable will to live for the sake of it?

Animal don't need to reasoning on why they want to live

Through the film we see a lot of rabbit being 'alive' might be the Warren of the Shining wires Efrafa or the farm but what is the point of living inside a cage getting robbed of your own emotions

I can't blame those who are lured into this life we see through the film how brutal nature is but we also see these gory scenes intermittent with those same bunnies grazing free, an aftermath on that peaceful hill of Watership Down

The Characters

More than half of the cast is barely a character, but i don't mind those I can understand how these kind of film need some of those filler character in fact if i focus only on those character who actually have personality i find them great. Fiver your typical little afraid pray with the twist that he can kinda see the future, so his concerns are just elevated to millions which give may cool lines

Keehar who is my favorite character of this movie he is such a great character a comic relief in an otherwise quite dark movie that doesn't feel out of place

What i don't like about this otherwise masterpiece

Note, I am writing this piece of the review after a re-watch The pacing of the film is Horrible, not even being rough, plainly not good

I tried to ignore this fact, even knowing that the film tried to adapt an entire book, still.

The worse thing is that i don't really can't think of a solution to this we cut the shining wires arc? I mean Bigwig being snared is just iconic! (it is the poster art of the movie!)

But i would argue that, after reading the book, the Shining Wire arc should need a whole movie by itself to cover it properly!

And same with the Efrafa arc.

and of course the result is a really fast paced movie with a great story, great imaginary and character but may lack the deepness that it deserved especially once one read the actual book.

So yeah i strongly suggest you to read the book if you really liked this movie like me :3

Overall

Watership Down is charming movie about bunnies overcoming the hardship of nature as the whole world seem against them while they travel in the search of a new warren as their previous one was destroyed by humans.

The rabbit characters act mostly as animals, except that they talk, and animals don't communicate like that but for mostly the human part of them end there

The film is famous by having some heavy gory scene, both from humans, nature, and rabbit themselves which while they are brutal, they all serve a purpose and are not there (only) for shock value. Like most of the film is actually pretty chill, letting us see the world from the point of view of these animals

I could describe this as a story not only for humans but for every pray animal, and even hunter animals if you squint enough Still this film has some shortcoming regarding the pace, you need to have some suspension of disbelief for that as some scene might result really rushed, especially in the Efrafa part, which still

I can't raccomand this film enough, and it's a shame that most people who didn't watch this movie think at it as "that movie where rabbit get slaughtered"

9/10

this was such a nice and complete film awesome animations, quite linear but still nice story

If you have reed the NIMH review one, you would know how pissed off i was in the finale here instead we have a story that engaged a bit less with me, but it was consistent in its entirety

Ok maybe consistent is not entirely true, i do think most of the scene where they focused not on the protagonist were quite dragged, but even then, it didn't ruin the experience or made me think less of the film

The story

The story doesn't feel mouse-like you know? I reed online that these mice are supposed to be jew, and the cats the russians or something, but as an uncultured rat i don't know what's up with that. The point is the animal part is used more for an allegory rather than an actual trait of the character, so this, unlike NIMH it definitely isn't a Animal Xenofiction, kind of disappointed in that regard but i guess not all animal movie need to have an animal moral. Guess some human want to identify as us because we are just that cool.

the film still get kind of creative portraying how mice might adapt these human mannerism mice living in boxes, or stealing a ride in the ship, nothing genial but still really cute to see

The bubble scene in the ship was so cozy and fully used the size of the mice at his advantage.

Also if I want to be honest, Xenofiction or not, the fright of escaping from ravenous cats or the confusion such tiny creature might have exploring a big concrete city is palpable,i did find myself in situation like that I can totally relate with that, heck even now that i am not a stupid rat kid anymore i could find myself in a situation like that.

All this chaos and desperation properly portrayed by the sound and animation was beautiful, the scene where Fievel explore America, it's endearing, when he is alone is engulfed by confusion, but staying with other local mice make the place more comfortable, more hopeful for a better future. Yeah there are cats also in America, but here there is also a strong mice community to build, one that can help each other to fend off against them.

stuffs that i found kinda weak

it isn't bad by any mean, but the second act is kind of weak, is just, not as memorable as the first act or the third the story kind of lose itself and start to become a generic mice in big city kind of story, as the only objective that Fievel had was to find his family with the film pivoting to other character instead of progressing the story of Fievel upon rewatch, i don't even despise these secondary character, they are ok but still, they could've put Fiver in these B-plots, make those character actually interact with Fievel in meaningful manners.

Musical

Also the film as songs in it, which, cool, but I don't feel like they are much memorables, but that is ok they are listenable while you watch the movie. The one interesting thing about the inclusion musical scene is giving the movie that "Disney movie" feel i'm still conflicted by this though.

Conclusion

This is a really good film, both for adult and kids i would say there is a lack of interesting scene, there is no "Owl" scene from NIMH as most of the second act of the movie is kind of just ok still quite memorable movie, i think how this movie tell its story is overall better than NIMH but still i prefer NIMH more, just plainly because NIMH is more on the Xenofiction side and what can i say i really love my species.

still really relatable if you are a mouse or a rat even if the story isn't necessarily about mice being mice 8.5/10

Kids need more films like these.

%%# Quick Updates for the Sequels as i don't want to make multiple entries for those %%# Tail 2 %%Is BAAAAAAAD, i don't know how people defend this movie, is just a bad rehash of the first one %%but like, really shallow, with characters that i can't take seriously %% %%also isn't it just a tiny bit racist to portray indian as that, %%like i don't know anything about them, but, it HAS to be a little racist there is no way. %%2/10 %% %%# Tail 3 %%surprisingly not that bad, they retconned to second one in the most stupid way possible %%but whatever, maybe if i was a fan of the second one i would be upset, luckily i am not %% %%this film messages are soo much on the nose, is incredible,

Waking up, the ceiling were pretty damp, and the warm upwind clashed through my fur and nose

he told me that no predators were in-sight, or you know, 'in-nose'

no wolfs, no foxes, and hopefully no birds of pray.

Quite the lovely day to be alive skittering through the tall grass, searching for fruits and berries

with the morning dew washing my body.

Sometime i wonder where the dew come from, a thought that linger in my mind as quickly as i smell a pair of red shiny cherries

they were shiny and delicious like if they were created just for my delight, because they were of course!

and i know that the next time i blinked a huge rabbit appeared in front of me out of nowhere thinking probably the same.

Curse me and my stupid blinking eyes, "take one more step and i will claw you to death" i said with one loud growl.

"sure" the rabbit said nodding then proceeding to sit on my face "do you like the smell of my butt?", I want to be honest, i really liked the smell,

still, he was stealing all of my berries, in complete darkness I swung my tail in front of his muzzle

making him sneeze and throw up one of the cherries that he was already chewing.

Quickly freeing myself i picked up the remains of the chewed up cherry and ate it for myself.

"take that!", i said proudly gulping the food, i bet he never saw that coming

"that's disgusting" he said, totally envy and with an empty stomach.

But then the strangest thing that bunny said to me "predators are around, how about we split the loot?"

"like... Each one in half?", he stared at me confused like I was the one who spoke no-sense,

he wanted to take the time it toke to split a berry

yet he was concerned about predators

I said "How about i take the berries, and you go back grazing grass, you grazer... rabbit" abruptly he take some of the berries and ran away,

I did the same pursuing her, that thief!

I ran and ran, through branches and foliages, reaching some sort of ruins, his home maybe?

It looked like no creature alive had attended this place's dusk in ages, no living being aside for some songbirds as ever touched this place.

A strong wind slipped through my nose and through the structure cracks, composing a odd, almost solemn hymn.

i was kinda stunned that such massive structure was present in nature.

but dazing by the melody a vice across my ear dragged me down a hole, it was the rabbit!

"don't stay there spreading your odor downwind close at my bolt hole, do you want to get us both killed?"

Don't get me wrong, he was kinda right, but still, if he didn't rob me of my food i would never have followed him.

"hey, ok ouch ouch... i get it, stop chewing my ears, sorry for breaking into your home, but you need to give those berries back to me"

annoyed like he wasn't his fault he said "it's not my home, is just one of the many bolt quick to the warren, beside i already left you with half of that berries, stop annoying me!"

What was he talking about half? He toke me two berries and then ran away and he was like

"yeah, two berries, four divided by two is two", "But I didn't had four berries i had Some Berries"

his demeanor changed seemingly more calm "drop one of your berries here and i will drop one as well, do it until we are out of berries, i will show you one incredible thing"

And i fool you not, what showed me was really weird, it felt like a thunder striking the same tree twice.

"whoa, that was a funny coincidence, we finished putting our berries at the same time",

"that is just half the magic, now each time I pick one you will pick one as well, so we can have the same number of berries"

I never thought of this like that, that is incredible, with this technique we could be able to evenly divide any amount of food, wait... "divide".

My clouded mind opened welcoming this divine knowledge. "I get it now..."

"You are a smart rabbit, still, i don't get how you are using numbers to divide evenly without the latter process",

"yeah this is what we leporids call, 'advance calculus' " brushing it off, and then bolting in the tunnel.

I guess despite the explanation My mind was still struggling with this concept of 'dividing numbers'

Trying to processing this divine insight ended up only hurting my head

burning my little brain, i am sure if i continued to mull over this calculus thing it would almost charred it.

'Calculus', 'Divide' this are hard concept with an even harder explanation,

I could do nothing but take it as a fact of life.

Just a bunch of concept that always existed, like this structure here

Luckily, i would never have the need to understand them

Eating and surviving is the only thing that matters

and of course some kinship between other creature would not hurt

knowledge is not really a thing that make me happy nor sad

but witnessing those intricacy, well, is kind of amusing.

i wonder if this structure purpose were always producing such beautiful song

I think it is, And in the end, what is the difference between my interpretation and the one

from others, is not like i don't know i am probably wrong,

Leaving with more question than answer i know i had to depart as well,

before my own smell trail vanishes and get lost in these new territories.

I nosed outside, a cold downwind ruffled my muzzle and my nose, i wondered where winds itself came from

but like numbers and the very earth below, i know they always existed, it had always been there,

as simple as the meaning of life.

Looking back before bolting away, i watched the ruins, and even them, i thought, no animals could build such thing,

it had to simply always existed there.

One day after another

"I slept so much"

"Yeah, me too, sleeping is so tiiiring... i hope our master get back, I am CRAVING for some crunchy seeds"

"well it will get back, it always does"

"yeah but sooner! in fact i want those seeds NOW!"

"what do you mean sooner, you mean before, when the light outside start to go dim?"

"SOONEEER, heck, sometime our master doesn't even leave us, why can't be like that all the times"

"who know, it seems to be related to the light outside, sometime he is here even when not but he is always here when they begin to fade"

"Well then, may the light shrivel in darkness then, if our master would always be here"

"how many times, did the light faded and emerged"

"more than one thousand times that for sure! it always was there, like this cage and our master"

"I think master and the light are related somehow, listen It's been awhile that i want to see what is outside this cage, maybe we could go outside and try to convince the light to never emerge again?"

"I guess we could, and your little obsession, isn't it like this cage, like, it is not just awhile, it just always existed"

"I mean, the view is quite lovely, right there everything changes, it's so strange, I wonder if everything always continued to change and everything will continue to change"

"I get you, but i prefer to being like this cage"

"as we both always existed to being cared by the master, well let's go ask the light to... "*sniff* "oh i think i smell him"

"yeah yeah, it's him, it's him!"

The two rats said wagging their tails, patiently waiting for their owner to enter their room

Second Day of Spring: Dodge some Wolves, Dodge the pelt of death itself.

Third Day of Spring: Hear the water form down the river, A Monsoon will arrive rather... soon... (mon)soon

Forth Day of Spring: Taste a worm and taste a spider, Taste your wet tail in your mouth after.

One Forth Day of Spring: Run in the Night, becouse your lair is turning into a beehive.

Two Forth day of Spring: Survive kill and Fight, Is my song for my right to live.

Three Forth Day of Spring: Steal the wolves the will to bite, I notice, the Storm as finally arrived.

Four Fourth Day of Spring: Hunt a bug as they hunt no rat, nature is nature and they knew that.

More than Four Fourth Day of Spring: Observe their Alpha Beta & Delta, Rest while I can, but also Get Caught by their stupid cub.

Nexth Day of Spring: Bear his strength, I'm still a rat with all my might. Today I remind them that we are all trying to survive.

Next Nexth Day of Spring: Live n' Alive come at the sunrise, as i realize, I could only learn them through this fierce fight.

The number after Next nexth Day of Spring: Mourn By The anew Horizon for what is worth, Lick my wound, Drink my blood until is cold.

Back to my burrow Day of Spring: Walk back to my den, tail is trembling, i will swipe them bee before another evening is ending.

More than the First Day of Spring: Follow their scent, Their sweet engulfing Smell, They are pollinating like good bee would do, they remind me that i want to pollinate someone myself.

Thousandth Day of Spring: Sleep with them, Dream of them, i Can't get rid of them, I don't even care, if They don't bother me i will not bother them.

Thousandth First teenth Day of Spring: Define my home to the bees, Their yellow flowers is definitely not food for me.

Thousandth Second Day of Spring: Savior life, Embrace your smell, bathe in a shallow pool of muddy water, it will make fur shiny clean and swell.

Thousandth Third Day of Spring: Wander uncaring around the lands, as i passerby another one of Them, i tried to hide, but he doesn't mind. That's good i guess?

Thousandth Forth Day of Spring: Stare in the void, as the song of my demise approach above my home. he was alone, I joined him howling. A full moon shine, above a cloudy wind orchestra.

hrair-roo Day of Spring: Look well--look well, O Wolf! Something tell me thy never come back in my humble dwell.

Another Day of Spring: Nibble Apples on my favorite tree, it was morning then and now is evening.

Yet Another Day of Spring: Find a Rat just like me, half of in the river half by a rock crushed clean. Come on! i could have finally mated but you just had to be a stupid idiot and die like this, i'd totally been down to have sex with another male, but like this? How did you managed to become like this anyway. Whatever, Then i went to sleep.

Not the last Day of Spring: Smell the dirt as it savior kind of funny, they were marking their territory, i never noticed that as they didn't renew it after the Rain.

Annoying Day of Spring: Blind and dazed by a sky with no white in sight, Earth itself told me "bath in the cold river, There is even your dead friend there to watch you alright.".

Quite the Day of Spring: Jump and celebrate, today i nibbled the sweetest berry i tasted since my womb escape.

Trascendential Day of Spring: Scream in a deep trench, as some fellow rats in hiding replied my own words, and only my own words, what a funny guy...

just a Day of Spring: Visit him again, "We be of one blood, thou and I." gently i gestured, the forest is full of life, useless lose time to such jerk, just forget.

Beyond the but still Day of Spring: Saw two deer, playing and lovely copulating, moans of love and pleasure filled the air and my sensible hears.

the Day after the Day of Spring: Grazing through the line between Life or Dying, those critters are eerily staring at me? My instinct once again told me to fight or flight.

These things are still in cronological order btw Day of Spring: Felt the Nature judgement over my fur, guess many animals didn't survive, the birds songs feel like a sundown to those took by her these nights.

Sleepless Day of Spring: Buzzing bee, they don't want me to sleep. You know, I don't want I to sleep, but on my terms

The Day of Spring: Scale Hills and Void itself, as the wind blow my dry mane over the air. I sometime Question Wolves fascination over these landscapes.

The Day after The Day of Spring: Drink the water from down the river, the soothing noises of crickets, accompany new muzzles from down the stream.

The Day after The Day after the Day of Spring: Mending your remedy, my dear rat, sometime you make me feel like as if memories like trees lives forever, not living being.

Dreamful Day of Spring: Snuggling myself at night, i dream of mate and a river of berries to eat.

Not the Fist Day of Spring: Perceive the venom of a Strange fruit, Trace back the seeds of destruction and pain.

Spring the Day of Spring: Escape, the dead rat has escaped, washed away by the river and from memories forevermore he escaped. Who was it again?

And the time moves on Day of Spring: Sniff that strange intoxicant smell of Spring flower, please stop torturing my delicate nose

You know the Day of Spring: Joyfully playing with my apples and eating some of my nuts.

I know the Day of Spring: Dazing still in the river, even more kinds are coming near. Will they eat me once they finished drinking? Will they spare me? Why my body don't know? ...need to run away from what i can't know.

I assure you, you don't know the Day of Spring: Continue to walk by those almost vanished marked lands, Nature is already using those who died to move on, he never stopped. Realize it will not wait a single rat for his plans.

i know, this is the Day of Spring: Playing Endless games of tag between a prey and a wicked vixen, she really doesn't want to know what a cornered rat is able to do i say that.

Boring Day of Spring: Sense the water form down the river, Another storm will arrive in these lands.

Hrair Day of Spring: Hide from the ghoulish scream of those squirrels, ran another day from new red fur dead.

Today Day of Spring: Submit Humbly, a Shiny Apple to myself, for successfully living another day.

not yesterday Day of Spring: Ridden the already served deer, she race all along the flowery prairie with her kind, all day and all night.

Inconclusive Day of Spring: Ponder inside my warm nest, is being an animal forgetting some of what you learnt? Were the grey wolves really good or bad? Water is now coming down,those beasts didn't leaved because they were wet, i only can only feel empathy if that help for my further survival, those memories are now fading. There is no shame being a rat, there is no shame forgetting what you lived, i can now better remember what is coming next.

Great like every Day of Spring: Nailing smashingly the drops still blow away in the ground, i can't... I can't wait to smell those flower again!

Forgot to update this Day of Spring: Foolishly surly, i under the rain at the sight of the only star i can gaze, a new moon i see above those clouds, howling again, then midnight strikes-my blood sheer cold.

Really Far Day of Spring: Bleeding, my tail is being bitten, a clean cut at my pride, i slit the tail end of my tail escaping his vice, a rat like me, maybe two heirs beside, escaped frightened. Huh....

Quite Far Day of Spring: Vanished, in the living waterways of these night, "We be of one blood, thou and I, aren't we?", "...Sorry..." with his shiny black eyes. Thy will also not come back again I presume.

Far Day of Spring: Stand up, a new clear day has begun, let go of old memories, they are not helping me survive after all.

Almost yesterday Day of Spring: Nimble down the river, There is some kind of Beavers? Wind sure always brought some kind of new things, but this is a story for another day, just be know even after lending them information they treat the river like it was them for some unknown notation.

Stupid fox Day of Spring: Contemplate... That dumb fox who can't even climb a tree.

Almost lovely Day of Spring: Grooming each other with a squirrel that i found on those tree. I am little more big than her, but still we could made some pleasure together, glad they are still alive.

Generic Day of Spring: Sighting the work of those beavers, what are they even doing?

Almost yesterday Day of Spring: Rush through the dew of life and bee, they finally know i won't hurt them if they don't hurt mee, (it's called rule of Mutual Assured Destruction)

Work Day of Spring: Dug another room for my burrow, is just another deposit for food, i really like eating you know?

Food Day of Spring: Excavating more food for my new storage, i even got some oranges.

i may don't know how to count past Food Day of Spring: Sleeping deep in my nest, all surrounded by berries, yeah i really like eating while i sleep.

Maybe even less Day of Spring: Losing myself between the shading trees, still i have not the luxury of falling asleep here.

yesterday Day of Spring: Share my food to some critter that passed by, they are finally acting more friendly tonight.

Today: Endless Down the river, another happy rat, who grief or remorse don't need another remind.

Diary of a Lost Beast

Wake Dodge Hear Taste Run Survive Steal Hunt Observe Bear Live Mourn Walk Follow Sleep Define Savior Wander Stare Look Nibble Find Smell Blinded Jump Scream Visit Saw Grazing Felt Buzzing Scale Drink Mending Snuggling Perceive Escape Sniff Joyfully Dazing Continue Playing Sense Hide Submit Ridden Ponder Nailing Foolishly Bleeding Vanished Stand Nimble Contemplate Grooming Sighting Rush Dug Excavating Sleeping Losing Share Endless

The end of another autumn, and i stand here proudly of what i have accomplished.

With the Leveche that caress my brown fur, And the sound of the Sirocco that Breeze through me with melodies of destruction and new beginnings, I stand here in bipedal glance with back my finally finished burrow.

Thinking that just some months ago i was sleeping in hole with my life hanging on only to the hands of fate.

I was pretty lucky, surviving that winter, i wonder how many animals may die in these seasons.

You know, Probably not many, you can't just turn off that flame of life that everyone have with just some snow.

Yep, That undying flame that talk to you, and linger in your heart to tell you "i want to live, i want to resist another day, i want to live another hour, or at least one more minute... And another... And another...".

I think someone call this flame Soul, i call it flame because it was the only thing beside my fur that keep my warm those nights.

If some rodent want to a shelter i will be glad to make them my guest.

I refueled my food storage, and i even got some fat, should i go into lethargy now?

I can still wander through the forest without freezing, maybe is still not the time to say goodnight. I can't really know when my time to hibernating will come

usually my instinct handle the hibernation thing telling me when i should do it, but it seems that they are not cal

Back in the sewers practically the entire conduct was a suitable place to go in lethargy as long as it wasn't near the freezing water, then again within your sleep if you choose the wrong place upon awakening you could have found yourself with half the height you were and the rest as the crocodiles tooth-stick. Men, that was sickening. Now i remember how many animal die in these seasons i guess.

Well i can't really know how long winter will stay and the Zephyrs are still forgetting some leaves on the apple tree that i used to climb

winter is not yet arrived but i think i will stay inside and build some more fat while i play with myself

Map of the "My" Fantastic warm and Ultra Comfy Dwelling

This is my proud creation, and it is exactly what i had in mind since i was born, a snug entrance for me and only to those invited by me, so no crocodiles allowed.

A Bedroom full of lush grass and storage for food useful in winter but as well for when i just don't want to wake up, food is also useful for colors so this is were i make some of them for my drawing.

At the other side of the bedroom there is my so to speak stargazing place, well i call it that but is more useful for watching the position of the sun, at the top of the room there is a tiny hole that let the sunlight enter, so in the ground the sunlight form a shadow that makes me understand the position of the sun. Is what somebody would call a solar clock. A handy trick that i learned from the sewer's drain cap.

And of course in this stargazing area there is plenty of storage for food as well

Then there is this empty room, i planned it for food storage as well, but then i just left all the fruit and berries all over the passages, soo... Yeah i decided that the entire burrow would be the storage, is also more convenient if you think about it.

Then there is the outside. I don't want to talk about the outside too much, since i don't want to be found that easily, but let's say it i am between some mountain formation, so i think is a place that really is unreachable to most of my predators, so i should be safe, i think.

I am also feeling real drowsy right now, yaaawmn...

I think i should be ready do sleep.

Dreamscaped lethargy

if i repeat every single thing i think my thought will become cacophonous, irrelevant and stupid. And i can't stop this if i continue like this.

I am something not someone, and if i am someone, then who would I be then?

I believe in my doctrine, it is I who have chosen who chosen me the essays that i had to study and teaching me what i learned

I believe in what I say, million of people sprout echos taking defense of my believes learned by the same people who are taking my defense so assiduously.

Yes i am a rat, i eat cheese every day! Yes i am a bat, they want to eat me like cheese every day.

But someday i am an anarchist if i try.

i would be totalitarian if I was the god among the other species

economically right? AH, you think that an animal can use money?

if you want to pay me i accept berry and autographs to be signed.

honestly i could be like all of you now when i am bored, do you say that an anthropomorphic abomination claims to not be an animal?

I am exactly like all of you, what you gonna think now? Do you think that a dirty beast has the capacity of dreaming has i do?

I indeed could say that I am part of your species more than most of you are, i mean have you seen the BIO of mine?

From light to darkness, from pace to war

from life to death, from me and myself

From Mockingbird to Cardinal at the same time

I will become you, but only as you please, so everybody would want to be like me, is easier forming an opinion if you are the Representation of everyone, and Above all I am the Representation of all good and right, you see?

I am a bit like you in the end, like all of you, i want good, not bad, why whould anyone want bad and not good, because we know how to spread good.

Now we just need to

Yes I Am a..., Since I Am not, I am... Car, Grabbing Stars, I,, Love Green, Car enthusiastic Yeah, Communist, ,.,, I 4 Years (123 in Year at second)

Antithesis

Decraturization

I have withdraw my not life to no thing.

I have stopped of being everyyou, Nevertheless i am still not nothing

I have no opinion or status qua to show

I am not far right or far left, center, anticenter, apolitic, apolaric, nor bat or rat or

either animal or object, subject, plant or bug.

I am not my mother, or my fathers, i am not the teacher who taught at me, the only teacher i had was my natural habitat, i don't even remember who i don't was before they didn't began to teach me.

So many negation for finding what i am not. Will they ever detach myself to all the tags that i attached to me?

no, no, No, No, NO, where is the not cold burrow of mine where i don't only I lived, i shouldn't be so close to her for not less than forever ago, don't keeping that place don't feel me with me, i couldn't say i didn't like the not weak smell that that place emitted.

What even is this feeling that i am proving anyway. I don't recall to ever have it.

Synthesis

I am an animal like every other

you know, i like doing things, rat things Let's say. and also bat things sometime

Today has rained, like a really strong rain, thunders, a downpours of rain.

i guess i am lucky that my burrow has stayed strong in even worse nights

all thanks to these claws

Now i should go out and search for food, before the evening settle down

uh, *sniff* *sniff* yep, is that smell of wet dirt and grass hitting my nose, so gooood -w-. And there, there is a great puddle for my to roll over.

And over that puddle there is a cute and delicious Bat-Rat.

So, my reflection huh? I always been like that no?

I always liked being like this, roll over muddy puddles. Always being a bit dirty make me feel so good, protected even, why should i stop? It make me feel so good, like if i was following the purpose that nature itself gave me.

Damn, Nature really gave me the purpose of being a constantly smell like rotten eggs too

Somebody else could have not liked this destiny.

There wasn't even a single moment where i couldn't trust my body

it felt like he already knew what to do.

with my nose i surpassed many dangers and deaths

even my Siblings were surviving thanks to their noses, and hunting with our squeaks.

sometime i feel like i belonged to those sewers, it was a nice place, really nice in fact.

this hears are made for those traveling through those dark pipes, and this nose for smelling through the variety of odor. These paws are not really that great for climbing, they clearly are made for running away at dangers and make burrow inside steel and concrete.

Everything, nothing, am i just a cluster of instinct and cravings unable to make choices? Does animals like me even do these in first place? Or is free will precluded to everyone but Only to gods?

i feel so good, but why seeing my stupid muzzle reflected in the water make me feel so empty. Where i am when i wipe out my obsessions, why i think what i am thinking, if nature wanted me to follow his order why i should feel emotions?

At last i am here, alone, in a forest with no filth, cement, or garbage to refuel myself. Me and my body and a lot of juicy apples.

I Feel so good when i let my body guide me. I should feel bad for following my own body? Really i care if doing this could preclude me free will?

I wasn't born here yet i am still here because of this apple tree, i leaved the sewers with some of my siblings, i couldn't don't leave if i don't wanted to wake up drowned or with half my bowels, the situation was not good there.

We as living being, the only desires were healthy amount of food, water, sleep and mating (eventually). Everyone of my sibling has used a different approach to this life.

Some searched help by other species, some other learned to swim, most of us including me we were stealing food from the raccoons in the city garbage can some other even tried to confront gods, many with grinded muzzle as a result.

We were so different all things considered.

And even if i can't express my emotion in any kind of lenguage if not in snarls and bites i can't really bound those feeling that we were having with each other to only instinct that nature gave me.

So, probably i have some kind of free will after all, do I?.

Not that i care after all, not thinking about it is better, the fact that i don't really control my own body is a bit creepy not gonna lie, but if nature wanted me being to be like this, then what is the point of thinking of myself as nothing but another cog for nature to work, Beside mindlessly doing what my body tell me to do is not a bad feeling.

Or as i like to think of me as

Confused Kupo

Soul, shade and spirit, Where i came from, or who i am?

Got no mother, or father, sibling, birth places.

Who i am kind stranger? be yourself like you always been!

What it is supposed to mean?

So... I can love hares, squirrels, badgers and raccoons and skunks aren't bad too.

I don't care if you're a white little rabbit living in your deep hole.

is fine if you want to hide your stories.

maybe is for muffling all the moans of the black big rabbits you will copulate in some month

I would have liked it you more if you were born as rat and see your eyes surrender to the ever fear

of a hosts of gods, sliced up your sweet tail

If the situation had been this dire then I would have understood your acting like an endangered mink (emo and with a great desire to reproduce)

Every day you pretend to be a doe but your tongue looks more like that of an anteater.

In the end it is not your fault too, if instead of menstr- you got -estrus cycle.

What fascinates me about you is not the species, the Phylum, the order or the family, nor even how many genes you had been knockout at birth.

No matter how many genomes I can change you, you will always remain as annoying as female mosquito, whether it is in the body or in the soul.

You have such great demands because you have different genital tastes than mine.

and not overdose on catnip or puffer fish would conceive such twisted and stupid thought.

Lock yourself in your tortoise shell as much as you want if you don't want to reply.

But before you go into hibernation I want to see you in the eye and see if there is still that jade hare inside you, the same that I saw it on the moon.

Did I ever tell you that you should try to kiss your own paws, maybe they could bring you luck, before someone decides to sawing them apart of course.

So I ask you like if i were a beaver, I'm building this dam from my whole life, do you think you can give me your paws in exchange of some love and maybe some unwanted childs?

Ad Eva (etymology) - Do not trust snakes

Mangy and Annoying White Rabbit

Would you love me more if I was on the spit?

]]>5/10/2020 144.202.6.7/blog/blogPost/FleeceHeart/engNijkstralarchive the first thing I would like to do is thank a certain person who indirectly inspired me to create this blog
she doesn't really know me, and neither do I, but after seeing some of her blog posts being shared by some people that i knew I said to myself:
'hell these people really care what she writes, so much so that they even share her posts, especially when she talks galore about how the new generation matters and when she repeats for the umpteenth time that she feels desperatedly depressed. people really go crazy '

Don't be mad, I appreciate anyone who decides to devote their time for creating content, and I have to say, many of the things you wrote are extremely well composed, but I think I can't back down from criticizing you a bit if that means maybe you might start talking about something more personal instead of rewriting your usual data and complaints.

men, I'm babbling a lot, without context what I'm saying now I guess it's just white noise for those who are reading

I started this blog so I can finally train on writing, I will have to learn to write something meaningful sooner or later if I want to tell stories. I hope these writing exercises improve the creation of this type of content at the end of the road.

until now I hid behind the excuse of not being able to speak but only draw, I mean, when I was in my edgy phase I was saying that my thoughts could not be described in words and at most I could do is only depict them through art, and when asked about the latter, I felt very cool while proudly displaying my huge red ballpoint pen and ketchup stains to impress the kids, but now I admit she was quite autistic as an excuse.

art is a great way to describe one's world, or at least it was, by now a drawing is no longer enough to describe one's vision, the same happened to photographs, nowadays only the doctrine of an artist is not enough to leave a mark, what people want now is to hear stories and a picture or some camera shots are not enough to get you to go to the museum, hindsight who knows how many museums should be created for all the pic on furaffinity or danbooru? Not to mention Deviantart. Now, not that I want to go to a gallery or anything, no, what I draw in any case is an insult to real art, and I want it to stay like that, I satisfied with drawing pornography with paws and hooves for € 25, then, expanding your work with a little more text would not be that bad.

Anyway i want to broke and close this discussion for an announcment --Fuck you wix and wordpress and all the creators of automatic sites, sure, to make a well made page made as it should can take years of experience, but really someone needs a monotonous and useless professional site? nowadays if I don't go on social networks and see the rest of the web a lot of sites are uninspired, I'm not saying that I did a masterful job, but at least I tried. I prefer a bare page than a prefab at this point
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